I
Little boy blond,
Where did I go wrong?
Was it when I tried to out you?
because I knew all about you?
Was it when
I tried to be your friend?
Little boy blond
Now you’re gone
- out of my life
And my only mistake –
Was I didn’t know you better.
Boy in the big blue Jeep,
you promised me
You’d sweep me off my feet
You promised:
Walks on the beach,
Candle light dinners,
and evenings at the movies.
But it never happened
you never showed
And I wondered –
Was that really your picture
or was it just you afraid to show yourself?
I fell for your lies.
I waited and watched,
but you never showed
I hoped
that we could make some magic
but it never happened
Instead,
I resolved to give you up
and move on.
III
Now I’m caught
in the spider’s web
He has weaved me
into his web
And choked me
into submission
but now we have made peace
We live in symbiotic harmony
I have left him alone,
and he has left me alone
IV
Some day,
He will come
When I least expect him
Still, I look for him
Because I know he is out there